A planned schedule and my health news

Hey hey everyone! :D

As you all know I had my hospital appointment today for my ultrsound scan on my hands, this was to check if I have inflammation from the bones. Fortunately, there was no inflammation which is a VERY good sign because it could've been a very serious type of arthritis. However now I have to wait for my next appointment, which is in January, for a follow up and also the next stages. I told the doctors about how I'm in a lot of discomfort and if there was a possibility to reschedule my appointment for an earlier date, of course being in the area that I live where it's highly populated there wasn't much of a chance. So I asked if there was anthting I take for the time being to be at ease from this discomfort they said to me the medication that I'm taking is one of the best thing right now I told them how it's not helping (I was quite persistent because it was neccesary) one of the doctor said that I would have to speak with my doctor at the next appointment. So I just have to play the waiting game now, however I am happy that I at least asked them if there was anything that could be done currently, because now I can just wait until there was a cancellation to move my appointment forward so that's the current status.

Ok so I have some great news!! :D Firstly, I am in the process of downloading Photoshop CS6!!! :D I'm really syched about it because now I can do some more editing and videos on Youtube!! :D I'm actually really excited about it! :) Secondly, I have asked my big sis for her video camera and she said yes but the only thing is that I don't have a tripod for it so I need find a way to work around it and I am scheduling to recording and upload my first ever Youtube tutorials tomorrow!! :D Honestly, I feel nervous and excited at the same time, I really can't wait!

Also I'm still praying and for the past few days I actually been working on my sleeping schedule and I have been waking up early it makes me feel really satisfied and I feel like I can get a lot done, which I knew already because it's something that I've experienced and learnt about too but it was hard for me to work on my sleep and it effects a lot of things.

Well anyways that's all for today guys I hope you enjoyed it and I'll definitely be uploading something tomorrow!! :D

Take care and think positive xoxox

May not be according to plan but something better instead! :D

Hey everone! :D

Ok so today all day I've been trying to get my first ever video up but there seems to be a lot of problems with the recordings (basically I don't have a camera and was using my ipod but didn't have any space so I'm going to ask my big sis for hers). So I thought what can I do instead of recording like this? And I thought of recording my Sims 2 series instead!! :D So I think I'm going to be recording that instead! :D

I know I know it wasn't accoridng to plan but I will hopefully see if I can get something up for this week! :D On the side note I have been praying all my prayer Alhamdulilah and I've also been reading an Islamic book today just to boost up my knowledge as I know that I'm personally lacking in my Islamic side a lot! Honestly my health is getting better I can feel it and I know that it's still there but tomorrow is my scan so hopefully there's some more good news! I hope it's identifiable this time.

Anyways that's all for today take care and think positive everyone xoxox

The birth of a new project! :D

Hello everyone! :D

Ok so just as the title says I feel like I really want to start a new project (the Sims 2 game hasn't started yet because of my health unfortunately) but I thought that I'd do something a little more managable in terms of my health :)

So basically I have been watching a lot of Bubzbeauty vlogs and beauty videos and it made me want to do the same! :D I won't be doing mine on beauty though I think I'm gonna relate mine to a more crafty side of things! :D I'm sure there's always people interested in DIY's and just general artsy related things! So yeah I think I might start on something today :D but have it uploaded before Friday! :D

I hope I get support from you all if you're interested because that would help me out a lot being a new YouTuber and all :P

So I hope that you all look forward to that!!

Here's a link to bubzbeauty channel and her vlogs! Their really inspirational so I hope that I could do that too:

~ http://www.youtube.com/user/bubzbeauty
~ http://www.youtube.com/bubzvlogz

So I hope you all look forward to Youtube (It be anything like this though so yeah I hope you enjoy it!)

Take care and think positive xoxox

A day late I know

Hey everyone! :D

I know I said that I was going to give you all something special since I have my first follower and all but I couldn't because I was not feeling too great and my whole house is still being done up because there's a lot of things that's unfinished...

I did however managed to do something today and that's because I had more time and also I was checking my twitter and surprisingly I found out that I now have 5 followers!!!! :D I am like super happy so I thought I'd paint today.

I had a very interesting preparation process firstly, I put down newspaper on the newly wooden floor in the living room, then I put my water colour set down and the my sketchbook and the Aston felt like playing with me he started to make a mess and run about and then he started chilling on top on my stuff. I think he wanted to paint with me haha!!

Here he just looks curious to know what my sketchbook is so cute <3

Anyways I did start to paint and honestly saying it took REALLY long only because of my body pain and to top it off I wasn't satisfied with the end result...I honestly felt that I could do a lot better then what I actually did, but that's just how art goes sometimes you're satisfied and sometimes you're now :)

Start with a blank canvas

Then some roses:

Continue with the rest of the roses:

Now to add some more definition:

Here's the finished product:

Well next time I think it will work out better and maybe I might just work on one thing like a big rose or something!! :D

Also I think I might do some doodle drawings as I was inspired by this YouTuber which I think you guys should watch it you like that sort of thing:

Here's there link

 http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=JpqoobimFPE

Do check it out and let me know what you think :) also remember to follow me on Twitter @TaranaBstar take care and think positive xoxox

Omg!! So happy first follower!!! :D

Hey everyone,

Just like the post says I had my first follower, I just checked it and found that someone is following me!! That's soo cool I felt soo happy and special and really loved!! :D I dedicate this blog post to you: @francessschou I appreciate it a lot it means the world to me to know that I have a follower and I hope to get more in the future!! :D

Thanks all for always reading my posts it's so sweet!! As a thank you I will do something really special for you all (when I wake up of course it's like 1:15am here so yeah lol) I really hope to do a lot for you guys!!! :D anyways take care and stay positive because life is not all bad there is always something that will make you happy or even smile you would've done so once in your life :) xoxox

Yay! My first Twitter account!! :D

Hey hey people! :D

Just like the title says I have finally joined the world of Twitter! :D So yeah I thought I'll let you all know about it! :D I'm sure everyone has been waiting for me to join as much as I have! :D So yeah I've finally joined now :D

Here's my twitter page so do follow me if you wish:

Twitter world

Please check it out and I hope I've made it easier for others to follow me now! :D

I feel really excited about it too!! :D

Take care and think positive! Xoxox

Congratulations to those who graduated yesterday

Hey hey people! :D

I just wanted to congratulate those that have graduated :D I'm so proud of my friends who have finished the postgraduate and undergraduate! :D I'm so proud of them all and even though I didn't go to the graduation ceremony I felt like I was part of the graduation! :D

It was nice seeing the pictures of my postgraduate friends in their gowns and some of my undergraduate friends as well! :D I really felt a little regret not being in my postgraduate gown but even so I feel like I was part of it and hopefully some time in the future I'll be in the gown proudly walking down that stage at the O2.

It reminded me of my graduation at the O2 - yep that's right people mine was at the O2 :D - it was wonderful! :D I loved it so much I had my big sister and my dad there (2 guest minimum and my mum watched it online)  it was a great moment and I felt that I have achieved something so great! :D and it is! I felt satisfyingly content and will never forget the moment - I truely felt blessed! Alhamdulilah! :D

I feel that anyone who is graduating whether it be from primary (elementary in US) school or secondary (High school in US) school or college (I think also part of high school in US) or even university (College in US - I think) is a great acheivement and you should be proud of yourselves. It doesn't end just there, I want to congratulate everyone! Because one way or another you have avhieved something it may be small to you but to someone else it could be the best possible thing ever! So be proud of what you acheived whether it's small or big it's still an achievement! :D

Anyways, I just wanted to share this to you all because I felt that it was important to let everyone know that one way or another everyone has done something, and sometimes people can't even notice their good deed without another person pointing it out. So don't ever feel that no one has ever achieved anything because one way another you have done something good! Even if it's something like a 'Thank you' is counted for as a good deed so be proud of yourself and never belittle yourself! :D

My biggest goal in my life is to work on my Islamic knowledge and be able achieve something great from it such as memorising the Qur'an or even work on meorising little incantations for daily recitations and also to definitely make a habit of praying! :D

Anyways I didn't expect this to become as long as this but there you a little something for you all I hope this helps at least one person! :D Take care and think positive xoxox

Building up ideas and confidence

Hey hey all!! :D

Ok so I know I haven't blogged in some time by the doesn't mean that I have forgotten oh no no no. I actually have been thinking of my stories and it kind of hard to get any writing done at the moment with all the redecorating and stuff (yep sti happening people) but I was able to do some writing today (just a little bit though!). I was really encouraged and motivated after yesterday when I finished reading the manga Fruits Basket! Surprisingly there was a lot of things I didn't expect in the story but it was a very heart warming story overall!! :D I really loved how unexpected some things were and also how sweet it was and being the emotional person that I am I cried several times especially at the sweet ending of the manga it is definitely another recommended one to those who love shoujo manga with review harem in it and with a little twist too!! :D

Anyways other than that I was also thinking of my other story ideas which I really want to work on so I shall start on those soon too. Also I am officially getting JSA because of my health and the fact that I am incapable of working at the moment. Also I was checking my Facebook and I was reading about my PGCE friends and how they have their graduation tomorrow at the O2 which I think is very nice for them. I felt a little sad because I won't be able to be there as I kind of dropped out and I really miss it a lot. However, after I get well (InshaAllah) I will work really hard and make sure to get into it probably after another two years! It's a long term thing but I think it's a good thing though :) I am happy for my friends and I feel proud of them :) I also received a texted from my friend Kirsty who is thinking of getting into PGCE so I hope hat she will also get into it too and I know she will make a great teacher! :D

Well anyways that's all I wanted to say, I had a nice cup of hot chocolate and now I'm snuggled in my bed gonna watch Aikatsu! And then probably watch the TV show The Blacklist!! :D anyways take care and think positive xoxox

I just had to end it

Hey everyone! :D

Ok so as you all know I have my ICT classes on Friday's but because of my health I have officially put a hold to the programme until I get better. Honestly, I felt like I was helpless because I can't do what I want to do but the most important thing for me to do right now is to work on my health and my religion. Speaking of religion I have actually been praying since yesterday all my prayers so far!! :D I feel quite good I just hope that my health gets better I honestly feel that my health will improve and I hope that this will not go on for so long! :)

Well anyways aside from that I had an epiphany of another story idea which I will also be working on too!! Don't worry though I will still work on my Two of a Kind story though! speaking of which it's actually getting quite popular in my Poket Writer's acount! :D I was happy to see the like for it even though it's little but that just means people are interested in it! :D So I'm really hapy about it! :D

Well anyways, I just finished watching Vampire Diaries! :D Really good! :) I'm watching The Originals now and then I will work on my Two of a Kind story!! :D Take care and think positive xoxox

Facing all challenges head on! :D

Hey everyone! :D

Ok so I have been feeling waay too useless because of my health and because of that I feel really motivated in many things like praying, and creative stuff like my writing! I didn't manage to do any sort of writing at all the other time but I think after I eat I will work on something I think it will help me take my mind off things.

I just finished reading the manga La Corda D'Oro it was one of those outstanding mangas that I've been meaning to read and I just managed to read and finish it today (of course I didn't just start it today!). I have starting watching the anime from yesterday on my laptop - which is also something I'm not going on as much - and watched some today and it was nice :) But being on my laptop makes me motivated to work on my ICT work which I am also working on too.

Anyways I have been motivated and challenging myself because of my health because I feel like I haven't been able to do much and it's a way to encourage myself. The other motivation is my family because everyone in my family are moving forward so it makes me feel like moving forward as well.

Well that's all for today take care and think positive xoxox

Asking for forgiveness for a sin and the consequences that comes with the sin

Hey hey people :)

Ok I know it's seems like a very harsh title for today's post but it's just that something happend today and yesterday that basically made me want to blog about it. Firstly, I'm human so I will make sins too just like anyone else. I did something that I've been trying to get out of because it's forbidden in my religion. I regret doing it, and I've tried to make amends by fixing it at that time which was about a few months ago (by a few I mean 8-9 months) certain things happend then and now I thought I was free from it when I knew that that there is still a link so I've decided just recently (about a few weeks ago) to completely cut it out of my life.

Things were going great, until yesterday. This connection came back because there was another link that I didn't cut off. So now I'm thinking to myself ok I really need to make sure that I make things clear and get this out of my life and so I've linked with this and properly made it clear about it too but now I think this will be a lot harder to get rid of.

I know I'm being very ambiguous about this but I just don't want to make it a big deal but I wanted to say that because of what I did back then it's biting back right now. I regret it in a way because it's upsetting and caused some trouble not just to me. I didn't want to be a bad person and I hoped that I never do become one. I just pray to Allah that things get better and that I am forgiven and that I can move on with my life.

Currently, I feel a lot free and relieved because I've let it out and because I am always honest I will make sure to pray and feel the way peace that I do at the moment all my life inshaAllah :D

Also speaking of praying I've stopped again but I want to make it a habbit again and what better way to go for it then by starting it right now? It's never too late to start and also Allah always welcomes everyone with open arms and always forgives those who are sincere and are willing to change.

So I just wanted to tell you all that I'm actually doing ok right now :) but I will make sure to be a good person and always make sure to stay positive and pray all the time! Take care and think positive xoxox

Being understanding and a good listener

Hey everyone! :D

Ok so the past few days I've been usual self, I haven't been able to post because I didn't feel like it and also because it wasn't the right time to either. I just felt like I was needed by everyone in my family and even now I am still needed. My family is big so there are a lot of us living in under the same roof it's amazing because we have a lot of laughs and fun time but there are a lot of problems that arises too.

As you all know I'm a very optimistic person, well I try to be, and so I always make sure to be smiling or saying anything positive. That being said I think my family and I mean everyone including my brothers, sisters and my parent need someone that they can just vent out their problems to. Well I am basically that person I am basically their punch bag that they let it all out. Honestly speaking I am fine with it because like I said they need to let out their stress and worries and I understand that :) It's important that an individual can do that. I know what you all are thinking what about me right? Well to be honest I don't have as much of a complain as the rest of my family when I do I do complain to my mum :) but I'm not proud of it. I'm the type of person who doesn't really like and express the negative side of things. Too much negativity and the household would break down.

Anyways, I think the best tip I can give when someone is stressed out is do something that you normally wouldn't! That doesn't mean something so drastic like leaving the country or something like that, but a more smaller change in life. Like doing a course for example, it's easy to get your mind off things if you keep yourself busy and I'm sure for some of you that's a great idea but for other's it made be a 'NOOO way I'm not doing something as dull as that.' It's not dull because the course I'm telling you to do isn't the same course as you would do for qualifications purposes there are many things you can do like creative stuff, practical stuff like sports, cooking. The course doesn't even have to be a long term one it could be a short course for a day or week or something.  I think it works out for any sort of situation too whether it's a work, family or friends sitaution just think about it.

I wouldn't say courses is the only answer sometime it's better to talk. You know, most arguements and misunderstands amongst people are from the lack of communication between each other. I am telling you all from my own perspective and from my experience and from what I learnt too! It's helpful for anyone!

Well anyways, I hope that this has helped any one of you! Take care and think positive as always with love Tarana xoxox

Hello people!

Hey people! :D

Ok so today has been a very slow day I wanted to order my air dry clay today but I went back on it because my house is still in the upside down state and having my dad as my dad is a long process lol

Anyways today as has been a very relaxed day and tomorrow is my ICT class so I'm going to that and right now I'm going to watch Beauty and the Beast with my big sis :D take care and think positive xoxox 

Expecting the unexpected

Hey everyone! :D

So as you know I went to the hospital and I actually knew what was going to happen...tests. After consulting with the doctor (who I really thought was actually not that caring) she told me to do more test to make sure if I have arthritis. So I did my blood test and at the end of this month is my ultrasound test on my hands and then my next consultation is on January!!! That's WAAY too long so I've decided to call them and see if I can move my appointment to an earlier date because its too late and the discomfort doesn't help!

Anyways that's all that's happened and so now I have to wait on my appointments to know if I can work again! Anyways tomorrow I'm thinking of doing some writing of my story so I can post a new chapter because I really don't want to sit around and not do anything. So yeah that's that's happened today so I shall talk to you all tomorrow :) take care and think positive xoxox

It's finally here!!

Hey everyone!! :D

It's finally come my hospital appointment!!! :D I'm actually a little nervous as well as excited because I can finally find out what is wrong with me. My dad said that he would come but honestly saying I don't want him to because because I don't want him to worry so much. There is still a slight chance that he might not come but if he does then I just have to make my peace with it :)

Anyways, today I was in a lot of pain and I'm really tired which is why I'm going to sleep early (well its early to me) and then I'll probably wake up really early too!! :D so that's all I have to say for today I will let you all know what happens after my hospital appointment tomorrow so yeah I'll speak to you all then. Take care and think positive xoxox

Tarana's ACD Sample design for Cuteness & Sweetness

Hello everyone! :D

Ok so I've finally made the first ever Cuteness & Sweetness Clothing brand line for Tarana's ACD (Tarana's Arts, Craft and Design). Now it's only a sample which is why I didn't complete the dress design on the model. However for my orignal stuff I will definitely make it look more professional and my style.

Anyways I thought that I'll describe the design to you all and how the cards for the collection would look like too! :D As you can see it's just a sample and when I start designing more of the clothing I will work at it and draw it much better than this on the cards! :D

 

 

So lets start with this top! :D The top part of it is a dark red net that will cover the nape of the neck (See the mannequin for more). Then comes the ruffle light red shoulder part that wraps around from one shoulder to the other. The sleaves and the rest of the top is attached to the shoulder wrap. The hearts are a light pink colour but there will be no black outline (the black outline only drawn to show the definition of the patterns only). The hearts in the centre are actually buttons centred on the top. The tassels on the end of the sleaves will be a dark red that matches with the dark red netted part of the top.

The skirt will be a light red colour which will be covered with a dark red coloured net on top. The pattern on this is again a light pink (no black outlines will be on them) the tassels will again be dark red to complement the top's tassels as well.

These dark red boots are just below the knee (See model) attached with light pink ribbons and patched hearts on the side. (Ignore the black outline).

































Just like the note says!













Ok so that's it for this one! Again I apologise for the delay and I'm sorry for it not being so perfect looking clothes but once I've designed them on my book I will move them onto the cards also I've decided to use colouring pencils so it doesn't require a lot of ink wasting! :D

Anyways thanks for the support everyone and stay tuned for more! take care and think positive xoxox

Progression on design...

Hey everyone!! ;)

Ok so like I said yesterday I was going to show a design for one of my clothing! I started working on it just a little while ago however I wasn't able to finish it because there was a lo house work happening and also because I was in a lot of pain however I did make a start and I made a start on it on the book I made. In one of my previous post I said that I would make a beauty book with tips and ideas but I didn't do it because I didn't get the job so I am going to use that book for my design!

By the way I was struggling a lot on drawing because I was finding it hard to draw a basic mannequin but I watched a YouTube video and I was able to come up with something! Anyways I've taken some pictures also the overall brand name is called: Tarana's Arts,Craft and Design (aka Tarana's ACD) I will come up with a design logo for it because it will be everything creative as the name suggests and also separate brand designs for the types of clothes that I make!

Here's some pictures: 

This is the book I created it was used for sketching but I've changed it to to my ACD book :D

This is my attempt at drawing a mannequin! 

I've already made the first design and all it's left is colour also it will just be a sample as I haven't created it in card for yet! :D anyways I hope it's not a total disappointment to you all I will most probably finish the first piece and show it all to you tomorrow!! :D 

Take care and think positive!! :D xoxox

Creative November! :D

Hey Everyone! :D

Ok so I thought I share a little something with you all! :D Well it's just as the title says! Creative November, I just have a feeling that I could give you all something really creative to look forward too! There's gonna be a lot of creative stuff happening soon! :D Especially since I will be going to the hospital on Wednesday so I'll be able to slowly get back to my feet! :D

I have been watching a lot of YouTube videos on different creative ideas and stuff so I think I'll definitely work on a few things and don't worry about the clothing design cards that I was talking about I will DEFINITELY show you all something tomorrow!! :D

This month will be brimming with creativity for you all InshaAllah (those of you who don't know what this means it means if Allah wills)!! :D Anyways I just thought I'll let you all know about it! :D So anyways take care all and always think positive!! xoxox

The Health Update :P

Hey everyone! :D

Ok so I know it's been a long time since I last blogged but that's only because I have not had a lot of access to my laptop and also because of my health. Honestly saying, my health has worsened a little since Wednesday (30th Oct) till present. My health status in terms of my bones and stuff is still the same just a little uncomfortable (as usual) but the new thing now is that my right hand side has been swollened a little...now don't panic guys! I actually went and spoke to the doctors today and she said that she can't really give any reasons as to why it's only on my right side but said it could be the cause of my bones and such which are causing my body to swell and coincedentally it's my right side and I asked her why is it then it's my right cheek, because that's not related to my joints and she said it's unusual and that it could be just swelling of different parts of the body but it just happened to be on my right side.

So at the end of the consultation I didn't get an medication for it because she said it would be best to wait until I got to my hospital appointment which is on Wednesday next week and there is no reason to give me anything that the doctor is unsure that it would work. So I'm not completely disappointed just anticipating my hospital appointment this Wednesday since it's now coming close by!

I just want to say that I didn't want to be such a downer because that's all this post is about but I'm sure it's not as serious as I'm thinking :P Anyways take care everyone and think positive! :D xoxox