Sunday, 27 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 29 (Sunday 27th July 2014)

Hey Everyone! :D

The last fasting day of the month! I cannot believe that this is the last day, honestly saying to me I feel that it went by quite fast of course there were days that were slow but overall I think it went really fast. I hope everyone enjoyed their Ramadan, I hope it was enriching and you learnt something from it even if it is just one little thing it's still something! :D

Saturday, 26 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 28 (Saturday 26th July 2014)

Hey Everyone!! :D

So today I got very few hours of sleep (I was very restless from the body pain for some reason and I ended up reading the current book) it was good because now I can sleep early and wake up early and get my sleeping patterns and eating patterns in check.

I ended up reading and completing another book I started a few days ago and I must admit the book in itself was very good and I'm planning to start writing reviews on any books or shows that I have encountered :) This would be a great way to improve on my writing and of course to really put my perspective in view as I have many thoughts on many books.

Anyway I plan start another story (reading wise) as I have a few and I swear to you I will be continuing my story writing tomorrow hopefully.

Anyways today I have been in the best mood for who knows what the reason but I feel totally like my old self again and it feels great! (I've been told by my youngest sis that I'm apparently acting drunk again LOL).

Anyways that's all for now until tomorrow everyone! Take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Friday, 25 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 27 (Friday 25th July 2014)

Hello Everyone! :D

I'm back with another Ramadan Dairy entry. Today wasn't such a great day because I received some bad news from my big sis. I will say what as it's personal and more her business than mine. I just feel a little shocked by the news and surprised but at the same time not so surprised. Anyways, other than that everything today was pretty normal, I didn't get any writing done yet but after this post I shall do a little writing. Other than that there's nothing much to say, so take care everyone and thnk positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Thursday, 24 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 26 (Thursday 24th July 2014)

Hello Everyone! :D

So today I woke up at 1:30pm and washed up, then I ate some food and then after a bit on the laptop I went and started to read the Qur'an. Now, I've already finished my part, however my older brother didn't get to complete his so I contributed to it. Since it's one of the odd nights of the last 10 days where some Muslims go into seclusion and pray gaining as much rewards from the blessed 10 days. Allah has mentioned about one of the odd nights containing some powerful rewards and is the best time to ask for anything and pray for forgiveness to Allah. This is why most Muslims tend to pray as if that night is the night and because no one is sure of the blessed day Allah has mentioned it is one of the remaining last 10 days. So tonight is one of the odd nights of those day where Allah will listen to you and will answer you (whether it be what you wanted or not Allah will place it upon knowing what's best for you). As it happens to be one of the odd nights, I'll be praying and reading the Qur'an as much as I can.

Ramadan Diary Day 25 (Wednesday 23rd July 2014)

Hello Everyone!! :D

Day 25! :O Not long to go now, really excited about Eid, the celebration the food the new clothes EVERYTHING! I love Eid so much, I hope everyone has a wonderful Eid. Anyways, I didn't post yesterday because I wasn't feeling too well, felt so weak and tired and hardly even ate anything. I really needed to get some rest, as I did and now I'm feeling a lot better today! :D

Tuesday, 22 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 24 (Tuesday 22nd July 2014)

Hey Everyone! :D

So as I said on my previous post that I will update again and I am :D This time I'm doing it a little earlier because I don't want to forget or make a commitment so late and never keep it.

Ramadan Diary Day 23 (Monday 21st July 2014)

Hey Everyone,

I'm sorry I didn't post this entry yesterday because I was really tired and I wanted to go to bed which I did and now I've woken up early. So happy that I did because this means that my sleep routine is going to slowly start coming together.

Anyways yesterday nothing exciting really happened, I was just doing a little bit of reading but mostly I was craving to do A LOT of writing. I didn't do anything but I think will tomorrow (Today - Tuesday 22nd) because I really want to get my creative side flowing through again.

Other than that it was a pretty normal day I also posted my 3 poems that I worked on during the storm on Friday which you can read if you like. Although I want to say something else happened but honestly saying nothing else did, it was a pretty normal day to be honest.

So with that being said I shall now say take care everyone and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Monday, 21 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 22 (Sunday 20th July 2014)

Hey everyone! :)

Ok I know this is a day late and it's because I was so engrossed in the book I'm reading that I didn't even realise that it was so late and I went to bed completely not realising that I was supposed to make an entry. But I'm here now :) so lets get to it shall we? :P

Saturday, 19 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 21 (Saturday 19th July 2014)

Hey everyone! :D

So today I didn't do anything other than reading that book I told you about. It's funny, intense and unpredictable and I really love it a lot! :D

I think tomorrow I will finish off the rest of my Qur'an reading as I feel like I want to read it :) it feels weird not to. Today for Iftar we ate grill food which was A-maze-ing!!! :D Alhamdulilah today's meal was simply magnificent and I felt grateful for eating. My youngest brother, however, had a BBQ with his friends for Iftar which was nice.

I think it will wonderful to have a family BBQ just my family because I know there will be jokes and great talks all the way. I think I rubbed off little of my positive thinking to my family because they all start thinking a little more optimistically.

Anyways that's all for today take care everyone and think positive as always Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Friday, 18 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 20 (Friday 18th July 2014)

Hey Everyone! :D

Ok today I was not feeling too well, and didn't have much of an appetite. I have no idea why, probably the unstable sleep? I'm not exactly sure but I think that could be one of the reason. Either way that is what I have been feeling.

Ramadan Diary Day 19 (Thursday 17th July 2014)

Hey everyone! :)

So today was a HOT day and apparently tomorrow will be THE HOTTEST DAY OF THE YEAR SO FAR! :O I'm actually ok with the heat, because I'm not doing anything to break out into sweats or anything. :)

Wednesday, 16 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 18 (Wednesday 16th July 2014)

Hey everyone! :D

Can you believe it's already day 18? That's how much progress you all made on your Ramadan and you're not alone! Many other Muslim brothers and sisters are doing the same thing. Struggling with their fast or something else. Do not feel discouraged because this is a time for each and everyone to help themselves become a better person. So think more along the lines of how I can be a better person rather than I already am a better person. In every individual there is always something to improve, be your own judge and seek your own justice through challenges and obstacles that would help you become a better person for yourself, for those around you and also for Allah.

Today was another peaceful Iftar spent with my family, I like how our family become more closer during these times so be sure to always respect and talk nicely to each other because it's really important. Again, you are not alone in this world so don't ever feel like you can't express yourself because there is always someone out there who would help you out no matter what.

That's all I wanted to say, well until next time take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Tuesday, 15 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 17 (Tuesday 15th July 2014)

Asalamualaikum Warahmatulahi Wabarakatu :)

I just finished having Iftar with my family, it was nice everyone was talking and enjoying their meals. We had some laughs and they were great. I really enjoyed it a lot. I truly feel blessed to have such a big family ^_^

Anyways that's all that's just happened take care everyone and I'll blog again tomorrow In Sha Allah take care everyone and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 16 (Monday 14th July 2014)

Hey Everyone! :D

Ok so today I woke a up earlier than usual! So yay for that!! :D I ate properly too like I should be, I know people are fasting and it's hard for them and for someone like me who wants to fast but isn't allowed it's difficult too. I need to maintain my eating and also be aware of others as well. I felt like I'm doing something so wrong by not fasting but obviously that's not true.

I have been more optimistic today and been in a good mood for some reason. I felt like I can do anything, I was helping my mum with some of the food today and I felt great while helping (although the after affects of my health kicked in) but I enjoyed it so much! I felt happy that I was doing something rather than seeming lazy and not active at all. I know that I shouldn't be doing much but I need to do something or else I can't sit still you know? It was just one of those days where I felt like I can be productive and do something ragardless of my circumstances, anyone else felt like that before?

Well anyways I had an enjoyable day today and I think it will In Sha Allah get even better :D Always hope for the best and prepare for the worst ;) Take care everyone and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Sunday, 13 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 15 (Sunday 13th July 2014)

Hey everyone!! :D

So today was not a good start because I woke up REALLY late! I have no excuses I really should try and sleep early.

That's aside I finished watching the Fifa World Cup of this year and surprisingly to me Germany scored a goal in the end! Happy they won but I'm also proud of Argentina for getting this far. I think everyone assumed it was going to be another penalty shoot out but the score was set by Germany. I love watching the World Cup because to me it's like the whole world unite in a sort of way and make it a joyous (sometimes) occasion. I love seeing the celebration and confetti at the end of it.

Also I made a start on my story chapter 8 and came up with many other ideas along the way and I'm sort of excited about the story I hope it progresses a lot more! :D

At the moment I'm eating - as I have been working on my eating as well. The food is good and I feel blessed to be with a family that supports me so. :)

Well that's all I have to say I hope your Ramadan is all going well and if those who don't fast I hope you had a great day ;) take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 14 (Saturday 12th July 2014)

Hey everyone!

I know it's late! I have no excuses I even woke up early today (9am) I was really happy and well now that I'm sleeping late it doesn't really help. 

I'm the manga phase again and I I started getting caught up in them again. This time around I will control it though - even though today wasn't a good start but I will In Sha Allah!

I've been feeling pretty weak these days (I'm assuming its the unbalanced sleep schedule) so I need to work on that again.

Anyways please always keep me in your dua's as I really need all the help I can get >.< I hope for a brighter future and always look forward to it. 

Well that's all for today take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Friday, 11 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 13 (Friday 11th July 2014)

Hey everyone! :D

So today was a pretty normal day although I have been feeling really weak but other than that I'm good.

I think with some things you just need patience like with my health I know it's going to take long time for me to get well and if this is something permanent then I would look beyond to see what I can do with this health condition.

It's about the perspective that one has for the needs and aspirations as well as others as well. Anyway that's all for now I guess.

Take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 12 (Thursday 10th July 2014)

Hey everyone!! :D

It's already day 12! Alhamdulilah we made it so far! Please remember that patience is also part of fasting. A good way to spend your time would be to read the Qur'an. Read about Islam, listen to some Islamic lectures and really get in touch with spiritual side of things.

I think today I haven't been too well, I felt a little weak than usual and so I have been making my food intake a lot more than usual too.

Other than that I haven't been doing much :) but that's all for today until tomorrow. Take care everyone and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Wednesday, 9 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 11 (Wednesday 9th July 2014)

Hey everyone ;)

Ok well today I have to admit I woke up late and I feel so tired! Which is a good thing because that means I can sleep early and wake up early! :D which is also why I'm doing this post early.

Anyways I think I'm really getting in touch with my writing side of things which is why I plan to update my journal and also start writing up my poems on paper :) I think I was inspired by the recent anime/manga I'm interested in called Chihayafuru it's really interesting and I got intrigued by the poetry and thought it would help with writing and creativity boost too so I'm going to do that! :D although I did think of that before starting this manga/anime and it was interesting writing the poems that I did because I've never though I would be interested in poems but they are intact a lot more valuable then people give credit for.

Anyways that's all for now take care everyone and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 10 (Tuesday 8th July 2014)

Hey everyone :)

Ok so today was pretty simple but a little stressful because I had to do some more employment related stuff. I can't work but the job centre workers seem to think otherwise as though I am well enough for work when I'm not.

But honestly saying I can't work but I want to work. I guess there will be a point where I will have to work now. Which is good but not so good at the same time. Anyway I just hope it will be sorted out soon.

Other than that it was a pretty casual day and I was just relaxing and watching anime and reading manga which I started up recently again.

Anyways always think positive everyone :) take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 9 (Monday 7th July 2014)

Hey everyone!

Hope everything is well with you all I know I haven't been updating its because I was not feeling well and I also lost track of time. So I'll update you on the days I've missed now:

Monday was a good day it was very simple and quiet and the food was food too. I spend the time eating during the day but not so much because I wasn't so hungry and my family wash fasting so I didn't want to eat in front of them.

I really enjoyed it though this month always has peace and tranquility. It's just how people go about it that's all.

Well nothing out of the ordinary happened so I'll end this post here and continue on the next day on the next post. take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Sunday, 6 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 8 (Sunday 6th July 2014)

Hey everyone!! :)

Ok so today I feel better (emotionally) and I think I just needed to say what I needed and expressed a little bit of it through a poem - it's quite negative and I felt bad for writing what I did but I think it was necessary (if you would like to check it out please go to my expressive writing blog under poems/songs it is poem 3 called The Anger Within).

Anyway today was a good day I think it was more calming and the food we all shared was great and it was enjoyable. I was thinking about how we all as a family come together during Iftar and it's wonderful because we all share stories or jokes, personally I think it's one of the perks of having a big family.

Anyway that was all that happened and to end on a positive note no matter who you are, you're not alone there is always someone watching you maybe you know them and maybe you don't but you will always have someone thinking about you! Allah is always there for us and He is closer to us then anyone or anything out there. Remember that.

Take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 7 (Saturday 5th July 2014)

Hey Everyone! :D

Ok so today was quite a interesting start ~ I woke up late (as usual but working on it slowly people don't worry) and when I was eating I was reading an Islamic article on something that I knew I wouldn't accept but have to in Islam. It was about the men and women's rights to their spouse. And the more I read it I have to be honest about this...I didn't like it.

I guess you could call me a small scale feminist but it's the way I feel and honestly saying I felt horrible but conflicted because I shouldn't be feeling like this at all.

After reading and while reading it I cried because of the way I viewed it and how horrible I felt to an obligation that Allah made  for both men and women to oblige.

I think personally it will take time for to make peace with this but In Sha Allah I can overcome this dreadful though and become a better Muslim.

Like always I don't like to leave things on a negative perspective so I'll throw in a little positive shall I? :P my praying has improved as I'm spending more time asking for forgiveness and also I feel that I'm becoming a better person and hopefully if Allah wills my health will also get better ^_^ please always keep me and everyone in the world in your prayers like I always do :) believe it or not I've made dua's for people I've never met and people that I'm close to all the time. Take far and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Saturday, 5 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 6 (Friday 4th July 2014)

Hey everyone!!

Ok well my sleep pattern got really messed up so that's why I'm writing up this post so late and also because I was so absorbed in my Anime that I completely lost track of time! :O

So I remembered now and thought I'd give you the low down. Nothing special actually but today I felt extremely weak and it affected me the whole day which is why I didn't do anything but just watch anime >.< sad as that may sound it's what happened, of course I did pray. :)

I have been trying to work on my eating and sleeping pattern and I need to try more harder so I will make a start on that tomorrow In Sha Allah :)

Well that's all for today just to end it on a good note I think struggle would always be there to attack it's just a way for you know and learn how to counter attack it and make sure it doesn't affect in a negative way but more so through a challenge and test on your life :)

Take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Friday, 4 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 5 (Thursday 3rd July 2014)

He Everyone! :)

So I think today I made it a little more productive day, although I wasn't doing much but I think blog updates I made some good changes and of course still in process.

Another thing that happened to me today was that I woke up from a bad dream. Now I won't say what the dream was because you should t be spreading around bad things so I won't say it. But when I woke up Tom it I felt disgusted with myself and also felt like not praying! :O

However after I washed up I Alhamdulilah felt the need to pray and felt that I cleansed myself from any bad. Now I feel more productive with my time :) I will be working on more of blog updates these next few weeks and of course my story too so stay tuned for that. Also lastly I made a target for myself to make this post my last late post and start sleeping more early "!

Anywho that's all for now until tomorrow In Sha Allah take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Thursday, 3 July 2014

All about me

Hey Everyone! :D

So this page would be dedicated to everything you all need to know about me from education, work, family to my interests, hobbies, habbits and so on! :D

Firstly, I would like to say I'm a Muslim and I take my religion seriously. I'm not an extremist I just implement many of the Islamic rulings and I would share them with you throughout.

So lets start off with my family shall we:

Firstly I have a big family Alhamdulilah :D there are 7 of us all together and including my parents that's 9 of us! My family are pretty low key and don't like to be so opened except for me though I'm pretty ok with it but I would respect their privacy. Well anyways my siblings and I are really close and we have ups and downs - like any other family - but majority of the time we always get along :)

One of the cool things about my family is our distinct personalitis, we have many things in common but we also have complimenting and conflicting personalities! I'm the optimist amongst them all though. Another cool thing is that my siblings order of birth goes in girl, boy, girl...First my older sister, older brother, me, younger brother, younger sister, youngest brother and finally youngest sister!

So that's all about my family! So whenever you hear me mention a brother or a sister pay attention to which one because I'll mention it by either saying young brother or youngest brother. So anyways I hoped you all are able to know a little more about my family.

Moving on from family lets go onto education:

When I was really young I was in a primary school where I don't remember much but only the fact that I had a best friend and we used to play together. But then my family and I moved and now we're living in the house that we're currently living in. When I moved here I didn't get to go to school straight away until after 2-3 weeks because there was no space available. Then I started in year 3 where I was pretty nervous and shy and met a lot different people. I remember one specific thing where during break time I was like followed around by my class girls because I was the new girl so everyone was curious about me. Honestly saying it was like the popular aspect of my primary life I felt pretty appreciated, I thought, and felt that I had people who were interested in me even if I was the new girl. Afterewards the crowd drifted to their own groups and so did I, which honestly made me a little sad but happy that I have a lot of good friends in my class.

So I spent 3 years in that primary school, afterwards I went to secondary school where I was with my friends from primary and that's when you can really see whose your friend and who isn't. In year 9  we had to pick options for GCSE which we'll study for two years in year 10 and 11 along side other compulsary subjects. I chose Textiles, Ristant Materials (RM - Woodworking) and Bengali. I know what you guys are thinking RM? Seriously? Well I only chose it because I thought it was about making things (which it was and it was nice). Textiles was something that I really enjoyed as I'd liked to be designing clothes too and I only chose Bengali because my dad wanted me to and also because at the time we were doing a lot of studying at home on Bengali so yeah. At the end of it all I did pass both Textiles and Bengali and well not so much in RM (hahaha! I'm sure you can guess that I didn't pass). My other compulsary subjects weren't so good (as you can tell I wasn't such a smart person).

After secondary rolled on to college where I studied an extra year (making it 3 years when usually people study two years). I studied in my first year a childcare course which I enjoyed and must admit did really well in it too. I finished my work ahead of everyone else and working on topics that haven't been covered. After that I did 2 years in Health Studies so I learnt a lot about health and safety, policies and many other health related topics.

Then I went onto studying University for 3 years. This is where I took up a degree in Early Childhoos Studies. It was a good subject, I enjoyed it a lot I had a lot of interesting subjects and the lectures were intriguing I really loved it a lot. I did quite well in it too so I was really impressed with the outcome. I really enjoyed the study of children in different ways and perspectives and also how to care for them too. It's a lot of work and assignments and exams but I think it was a wonderful experience to gain.

I then went onto doing further education which entailed my PGCE Primary. This was a post-graduate degree including teacher training and a process to becoming a teacher. This I have to say was where my most effort was tested. It required me to multitask so many things at once and still have the energy to carry out daily teaching tasks. I loved teaching the children and learning in the process as well. However I wasn't able to handle the preassure for long and I had to withdraw from it after being in the programme more than half way through. I think I just went into it a little to fast and wasn't fully ready for it.

Hobbies and Interests:

My hobbies and interest include many things and it's very wide range and includes as follows:
~ Reading ~Writing ~ Drawing ~ Painting
~ Crafting ~ Playing games ~ Exploring new things ~ Watching tv shows
~ Meeting new people ~ Watching anime ~ Reading manga

Well that's all I could think of with what I like to do if I think of more I'll add more to it.

Oh emplyment:
Honestly saying I haven't really worked, I have done many volunteering work from hospitals, to admin to of course working with children. But I never really worked, finding a job is always hard and I was no exception do this predicament. I would love to work I enjoy that aspect of life and I hope that I could be able to one day in the future (when I'm well enough).

Well that's all about me I hope you were able to learn a little bit more about me :)

Falling quite behind...I know

Hey everyone! :)

Ok so in my last post I mentioned that I would update my blog and other updates would be happening. Of course that didn't go quite as planned, because I fell ill. But now that I'm feeling better again I shall resume with the updates I mentioned on my previous post including updating my writing blog too.

Take care Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Ramadan Diary Day 4 (Wednesday 2nd July 2014)

Hey Everyone! :)

Sorry for updated you all on my Ramadan Diary yesterday so I thought I might as well tell you about it now.

So I started the day off waking up a little bit more earlier than usual. I decided not to read the Qur'an because I wanted to give it a rest. I know it's not good to not be reading daily but I just wanted to not read it for a few days, just so I could recover a little bit from the pain non stop.

Anyways the food was good for Iftar and well I had a good time it was a peaceful day except I felt a little out of place because I wasn't fasting and that made me feel sad because I couldn't join in with rest of the family with their feeling of not feeling the same.

But again I made myself remember that I am also going through a test that my family are not going through and I will In Sha Allah be rewarded either in this life or the hereafter :)

Anyways other than that I think I shall just keep a positive mind like always and keep at it with what ever I can do. Take care all Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world embrace xoxox

Wednesday, 2 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 3 (Tuesday 2nd July 2014)

Hey everyone!

Firstly I want to apologise for the late diary entry, and secondly I want to say I can't believe it's already been the third day! :O 

Is it just me or is it going by so fast? I think the important thing to remember is to always stay I the state of worship and thinking about Allah that's a good way for the time to go by :)

My day unfortunately started late again because I woke up in the afternoon which is terrible so I need to start working on my sleep again starting tomorrow (technically today) so I hope that will work out again :) other than that Iftar with the family was great nothing special happened :)

Well that's all I have to say take care and think positive Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox

Tuesday, 1 July 2014

Ramadan Diary Day 2 (Monday 30th June 2014)

Salam everyone!! :D

Ok so Alhamdulilah it's already day two and everything is going the same :)

My family are all fasting and as usual I cannot but just like yesterday I read one Para of the Qur'an and it felt good. Every Ramadan my family and I split the paras amongst ourselves and we all contribute to the reading - roughly, we a have four to do so it should be fine - of course if we finish reading our given amount we can also help out by helping the other member of the family to complete the whole Qur'an. After its completed my father will tell our local mosque and they will make dua for me and my family.

It's such a wonderful tradition that we have and I like the fact that everyone is more harmonious during this month and I always pray for our family and everyone to be more better people. Of course I pray for the same hint for me and also for my health. ^__^

Anyway I have so far completed two out of four paras on my part and honestly saying it was a lot of difficulty and struggle. But I think that comes with a lot of people when they are struggling and achieving anything. At the end the reward is always greater.

Well I think that's about all for now until tomorrow inshaAllah :) take care Tarana A beaming star shining with positivity for the world to embrace xoxox